So Hard Waiting for that Prince Charming...

Yes, I was mad at God. Here I am in college with my high school sweetheart, thinking I am going to finish college, get married, and have children. What woman doesn't think that or even dream it at times? Well God had such a different picture for me, a picture I wasn't ready to endure. I wanted it to work out my way and the way I thought it would be. Yes I grew much closer to the Lord during that time at East Tennessee State, but it took God giving me a swift kick in the head and he didn't do that until much later, after I had refocused on him and him alone to take care of my wants, needs, and the way my life was suppose to go. I had given up hope, quit looking, and came back home to Va. I had decided I would be the lady with a million cats, the dreams of being a wife, mommy, and the big house was doomed. You know, sometimes it is so funny when we want something to happen, and we finally give up and let go, that's when amazing things happen. I now realize that it may not have been all me, it may have been the prince God had in mind all along wasn't ready yet, and now that I look back that was indeed the case. At the time he was working on me, he was also working on this family that I wanted and it was all piecing together slowly, but perfectly to him and after all that's the way I really wanted it, with my ideas of course put into play somewhere. :) I had not dated anyone since my high school sweetheart, and really didn't want much do to with guys. I just liked the idea of the family thing. At 20, I was lead to Brad by my brother and things happened so quickly, but I don't think I would have wanted it any other way. I was told by my brother that there was a guy he was working with that I needed to meet. He said Kasey, you are going to marry this guy I know. I said how do you know that? He said I just do, you two are perfect. He is shy, doesn't talk much, has a little girl, just got out of a terrible marriage, but a hard worker, but who doesn't like books, reading, and games, but he's nice. I said really, he's prefect for me? I am loud, outgoing, don't want to even step into a blended family after my own, and I love to sit and read for hours and do puzzles and games? Really? He's it? :) Well, God knew what he was doing, I wasn't very set, but curious because I had a spark set off. Well, I got the number from my brothers phone, and called Brad. He was shy, didn't talk much, and was everything my brother said. But something drew me to him, something that had never sparked my interest. Well I was at the beach, having never seen the boy, I decided to come home early after talking to him for a few weeks by phone, what we talked about, I don't know, probably played 20 questions one million times, but something was attracting me. I asked the Lord about it, because after all, at Tennessee I had a revelation and decided God would make all of my decisions and would tell me where to go as it should have been all along instead of me trying to do it myself when it so wasn't working. I met him at a gas station, my cousin dropped me off from the beach to a stranger to met and go home with, yes I was crazy. Well the boy steps out of this huge truck, mind you I had never seen him, looking like a cowboy, a Ethiopian cowboy. Now, I was wondering and really talking with the Lord then, what in the world?? I am use to the Hampton boy look, not Crocodile Dundee. Well, we talked on the thirty minute drive home, well I talked.. I fell out of his truck getting out, and thought, not much conversation and falling out on the first appearance, well I have either chased him away or he is desperate. Things from there took off though, the Lord showed me so much about him, things that I would have never seen or never looked for. The kindness, loving, caring person that could be so sweet all the time. I had never experienced this, but it seemed to work. The night before our wedding, I pulled out my Bible, out fell a few sheets I hadn't seen in a couple of years. A list that I made in a ladies bible study class, a list of that prince charming I wanted. A few years back, I was in a class called Lady in Waiting, an amazing book study by Jones and Kendall, I highly recommend it to any young female or older if not married. We were told to make a list to be so specific that it was almost impossible to fill that position of everything we wanted in a lifelong husband. Well when they say specific you better believe I was, from eyes to hair, to heart, to looks, to personality.. the list was a few pages long. The point is that study said that if you really wait on the prince that God has waiting for you, then this list will be filled, no matter what is on it, if you are for God and you are waiting and really trusting God to do amazing things, this list will be filled. Those sheets fell out the night before my wedding and going through that list I was in tears, not everything was Brad, but is was so close it was scary. Even down to the blue eyes and the way he smiled. I sat and cried and cried, tears of joy, for that was a miracle the Lord showed me that night. "Wait my child, I have the perfect plan for you he said, I have sent this man, not in your time, but mine, and he is the one you were meant to be with." And you know that list that he didn't perfectly fill... over the years he has done it, God is molding us more and more each day into the perfect couple. Brad even knows most of my thoughts before I say them, some times think them, as do I for him.(I'm having a little more trouble, but getting it.) A match made by God.... God has once again proved to me that nothing is impossible with God, even my petty list that I made up thinking could never be filled.. ;)