Stepping into a Mommy's Role from Day One...

I have always wanted kids and I have pictured myself with lots. When I married my husband, he had just came out of a terrible divorce and had a daughter, all divorce is terrible. Well guess what position I was called to fill immediately? You got it, a mommy. It was not how I had pictured and I was a bit weary since Hailey had really not much to do with me unless it was something fun at the age of four. She was an amazing child, full of curly hair and big brown eyes, she looked just like Shirley Temple, angelic. Hailey and I quickly became friends and I quickly learned that position and filled it well I thought. I was finishing school at the time working on my Early Childhood degree, and was able to spend alot of time with her with Brad working and me in evening classes. I was able to do all of those neat mommy things and we clicked. Nothing could change how amazing God was working in my life. She did have visitation with her biological mother, and that was hard and a mess to have to deal with someone who was still a child herself , but it worked and Brad and I worked through it just as everyone does and has to in that situation with a blended family. I now understand why God placed a blended family in my own path, because now I am living it and am failing at some things, and succeeding at others, but my own family growing up and seeing what worked and what didn't certainly helped me and still does. I believe that Hailey was placed in my life for so many reasons. She gives me so much joy and peace and really does know my heart so well. She is wise way beyond her years and the more she grows into a beautiful young lady, the more I love God for putting her in my path. I see how we all must get along together to make Hailey's life easier, just as we had to and still do with mine. I wish I could keep her to myself just as every parent doesn't want their child to grow old, but God is going to use her, just as she has me, in the future to do amazing things and make things work out in her own life and in the life of others. Hailey and I have such a bond and I think that God placed her in my life, even though not my own flesh, to where I could have be that mommy that I had always wanted to be.