God Babies are God's Gift of Life

Well, the kid thing seems to be out and I admit I have my good days and I have my bad days. I really am much better through this and all that God has taught me! If nothing else, I have learned to rise above the ashes and look at all the beauty in the mist of things and thank God for what I have been giving because it has been quite a lot to be honest. I admit I still have lots of learning to do and I really don't think he is ever completely finished with us, because we as humans, are never going to be that Holy and Godly person that God calls us to be until our end. I do love Hailey more than life itself and I am so glad that God chose her and placed her in my path, in our path, because she is so amazingly strong and wonderful! She sometimes helps me through some of life's toughest questions when I can't even put the pieces together. A year or two ago we were asked by an amazing couple if we would consider taking on the responsibility of god parenting. Well Brad and I were sat down but of course with those two, it wasn't a very hard idea or concept to think about, it was an immediate yes. Jerry and Amy are a one of a kind and I love them just as much as I love my own family. We have so much fun together; laughing, loving, and just enjoying life that who wouldn't want to be a part of their family? And to have those two precious gems granted to us and for them to know that they trust the lives of Graham and Braelyn with us is the utmost highest honour and we couldn't have been any happier. I have spent lots of time with them this year and having them around, especially when Hailey is not here, really does help with everything. Those three babies are the light of my life and as I was talking with God, and when we chat, each time he comes back with a simple answer. I gave you three beautiful babies, yes I understand that is not how you wanted it to work out, but none the less they are three amazing beings that I trusted you to mother become that mother figure in their lives. Hailey, Graham, and Braelyn are amazing and I need you to take what I am giving you, and be still and know what I am doing is only because I need to you focus on the babies you have on Earth, the babies I have are fine with me, much better off then living in this cruel world. God understands what I desire, what I want, but sometimes he isn't going to give it to us because it may not be in his plan. It may not be in the great scheme of things that he has in store for us. And when I look back on life, I see the most amazing things and why they happened and how they happened are most of the time so much better than what I wanted in the first place. Whew I know that is a handful, but a truthful handful for us all. :)